Scream in Silence

February 2, 12

I don’t know why it’s so hard to let go. Why is it so hard for me to trust people? I envy newborn babies who grab the fingers of strangers when they place them inside their tiny palms. If only relationships could remain so pure. I still can’t figure out how to give a woman everything. I barely give enough before retreating back into myself. My soul cries like an infant left alone in a strange place.


I remember a mother once told me that her infant son cries for hours but no tears ever fall because the tear ducts take about a week to form underneath the eyelids. So the baby would basically just scream until someone got him.  Babies are wise even if they are undeveloped. I do believe men are over developed and severely out of touch with their humanity.


As a child my uncles would only cry when they had too much to drink. Then they would fight one another shortly thereafter to redeem themselves. Now that I am the age that they were then I rarely if ever drink. My tear ducts remain unused and I pay for that. I pay for that with my inability to let go. I pay for that with my insistence on not giving everything to her so that I can save some for myself. And then I scream in silence as loud as I can until she leaves.


2 thoughts on “Scream in Silence

  1. Love is the only answer my friend. Not romantic, or lustful love but genuine love that a child gives off to the strangers you speak of.
    I know I have the habit of engulfing my emotions around my pride and self worth – always leaves me feeling empty.
    Once again, how you express yourself always gives me get tingles. Absolute rock star you are YB!
    Love brother – remember Love ❤

  2. It’s great to have you back lady. Where did you go?

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