December 7, 2011
I’m feeling stressed—so stressed in fact that I’ve taken to reading the bible and calling on god in the middle of the day. Not that this is anything I’m ashamed of but I am a bit concerned about my relationship with god. When my life is at its lowest points I pray, I fast, and I live with the Holy Ghost inside of me. On the contrary when everything is swell one could argue that I’m an atheist because I act as if god isn’t even there.
I think about those people in my life who only call me when something is wrong or they need some kind of help. I think about how shallow and inconsiderate they are, and then I think of myself. When it comes to my religion I am they. This is what troubles me more than anything else right now. This is something that I need to address.
I know the feeling…
I think a lot of it has to do with our conception of God and of our relationship with Him. I think for me, what’s connected to that feeling at times is me thinking that “If I’m not going through anything, where I actively need him to intervene, does He care?” Of course the answer is “yes,” but at times I still struggle with that.
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Happy new years, and we should connect soon. Grab some coffee or something.
Thank you for your comment and yes we should hook up soon. I’ve been reading the bible and thinking about a few things. Like what’s the difference between an apostle and a disciple for example. At any rate yeah man we will definitely be in touch.