September 12, 2011
Finding the time to do what you love can be hard but giving up on your dreams is harder. It’s refreshing to be able to create something in a world where I have very little control. My thoughts do me no good when they’re fully contained. It’s not as if they’ll ever go away so why not let them out systematically and creatively?
I just listened to Sinnerman by Nina Simone for inspiration. It’s probably the most powerful song ever recorded. In that performance Nina’s voice transcends words, rhythm, and melody. By the end of the record it sounds as if Ms. Simone herself has been transformed into a musical note.
I don’t know that I have ever been caught up in anything in my whole life as much she is completely absorbed into that piece; not in any relationship I’ve ever been in, not in the gospel, not in writing, not in boxing, or anything else I hold sacred.
I do believe that sooner or latter every true artist has to pay that price. At some point one must give up everything that one has ever had in order to get everything that one thinks he deserves. I question whether or not I’d be willing to put everything on the line for my craft. I wonder how far I’m willing to go.